and we go on

Leaving the best memories behind
after learning that your weren't real to them anyway.
What is the use of trying?
If no one considers you a part of anything.
Someone to make time go by?
The person on the last string when no one is around.

Yup, always have and always will be
the last choice, the last thought, the last memory
that anyone will ever have.

I am no one, not even to myself.
I am my only friend with maybe one or two others.
I will live my life with no expectations
and no desire for anyone else.

When all else fails just call Kesha?
Maybe that is how it is.
Nothing else to do, time for our last resort.

Too bad, so sad.
modo of my life.
It's not that we go on.
Everyone else goes on
while I am left alone in the dust.

NO, I do not choose this path for myself
listen and read, I DO try to get your attention
check your phones, your dumb ass facebook and myspace.
That is where I have become desperate.
It's not that I want your attention,
it's that no one has given much to me anyway.

Talking about her, or him.
Yeah, I will listen because I do care.

I wish someone would listen back.

so and so and so

So life really goes on.
Things are working out slowly and painfully, and I thought it should.

Summer just hit me leaving a nice pink spanking on my ass.
Life is bitter sweet with baby chunseys in the morning
and on shore cool winds in the evening.
I'm so tired now after work
but I must clean my room.
Friday nights have lost their touch.
Absolutely NOTHING to do these days.
Sad sad.
I just want to rage and dance with my girls and my fella on my side.
too bad 5 more pounds has set me back.
Gottah get back into the routine, oh boyyy.
I do love summer.



you can guess who is who. teeheehee

I am the one to blame

It's really sad that I am to blame that my own boyfriend doesn't see his friends.
Let's look at the facts:
I don't get to see him that much anyway maybe an hour or two every other day.
Most of the time I spend alone waiting around. And YEAH I do hang out with my friends a lot,
but that's because the times I spend with them are when I can't be with skyler.
So it's sooo stupid, it's his fault he chooses not to be with them when he can.
I should never be the one to blame for this. And the worst part is is that I have to be equally leveled with his friends.
I don't think that is fair, I am supposed to be his girlfriend, yeah I expect to see him at least every other day. But isn't it how that should be. That's what happens when you are in a relationship, times with friends are less and you DO hang out with you girl/boyfriend more often then most.
But whatever, now I'm stuck scheduling the time I can spend with him. Only one full day and maybe two or three hours every like three days.
Honestly, that's kind of lame. But I guess that's what I got myself into and I am kind of over it.


And now I am stuck at home alone, friends are busy with THEIR boyfriends, or just busy.
I honestly don't care that he is spending time with his friends, why should I?
I just don't think that I should be blamed for him not getting to see them.

SOOO who ever has spare time like me, we cruise!

Once upon a time...

they lived happily ever after???
doubt it

It is official

Today is my last day of the semester.
I decided not to torture myself with summer school so I can be in college for the rest of my life.
My throat still hurts but not as bad.
Shouldn't the antibiotics be working already?
oh well.
I am so stressseeeddd!
I would like to go to the beach.
But I have to wait like 3 days.
oh well, until then......

once again

I wake up with a sore throat.
This really sucks! AND I start finals today, haven't studied too hard cause I am feeling deathly.
WHY NOW?!?!?!?!
I hope I'm better by thursday or else I will sleep and never wake up.
How do I tell my teacher that I can't stay to read my poem? gooooosssshhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

vent

soooooo I am pretty sure I am sick now.
The only thing leading me to my conclusion is that I can't swallow because of the excruciating pain!
It all started yesterday at work, I was perfectly fine, busy, and of course not drinking any water.
SO I start feeling like I am going to faint, I sit down and someone gives me bread which felt like glass going down my throat.
So my dad or shall I say my boss comes in and is telling me to get over it. So I put on an act like I am okay, trying not to puke on my customers.
Now, the next morning, I go to my "dad" to tell him I am sick. You can just guess what he says:
"YOU KNOW WHAT! You think about all the other people that call you when they are sick. I AM YOUR BOSS you are so disgusting. The other manager and I found you sickening, sitting on the job is unacceptable! You need to get over and deal with it or else I will."
Yes, and this is at 730 in the morning at our house. I can't even have a dad, he is my boss 24/7. Oh and the other people that call me when they are "sick", they are actually hung over. COMMON! I didn't know I was going to be sick, when they are drinking they have to know that they will be hung over!
This is all fricken bull shit!
I am going to quit and get a new job, SCREW JAMESONS!!! They're all selfish assholes.
To top it all off, I found out that no one I work with will be friends with me because my dad is the boss, so of course everyone is fake excluding maybe 2 people.
Pretty fricken gay!