why

does depression have to kick in on good days.

i really should talk to someone..

relief!

School is done!!!! (for now)

And I will embrace every opportunity I get, appreciate the people I am with,

and remain worry freeee!

Yes, I am really going to love this break.

To Do list:

•BEACH

•SURF

•FIESTA

• Be with happy people

•Stay away from immature overly dramatic people

•BEACH

•eat LOTS!

•FIESTA!

•Be with friends

•SURF

•Love

•Laugh

•FIESTA!!

alone

It seems these days are being spent alone.

Everyone busy, gone, forgotten.

I find myself talking to myself and laughing at my own jokes.

I am my own friend, my own best friend.

So much more is getting done, laundry, cleaning,

tune ups, homework.

But yet I am having the HARDEST time in school.

God knows why, but my study habits are leading me down the drain.

But it is still sunny outside of my window.

The birds are chirping on schedule,

And I, continue each day like the last.

Oh! and, I would like to repeat ---------^^^^^^

this day over and over again. ----------^^^^^^

Champagne, friends, fun, laughter..

complete

Oh my heart is so full of love

He has returned to me

with kisses and hugs

a girl could only dream of.

His big black eyes full of stories

that he would never be able to tell.

So many questions

held in so many mysteries.

But of course, when one gains

one must loose.

I am broken, again

from the same old swindler.

Life never stops sending me it's curve ball.

But I must remain humble, and grateful.

I will find what I deserve.

why

Is my puppy gone?!

Was it something I did,

is this something I deserve.

Who knew that the absence of a crazy,

wild dog would leave me torn up.

I can't sleep, can't focus, can't eat.

I just want my puppy home.

I want my best friend home!

xD

Alone once again.

every breath, step, glance, touch

feels so routine.

No time to be with friends,

no time to be with myself.

Everyone is just so gosh darn busy.

Ignoring my calls, screening my messages

Yeah I know that is what you do.

You can't hide, you can't fake.

Only wanting me when you have no one else.

This is not what I am meant for,

not what I want.

What do I want?

Happy faces surrounded with laughter.

Friendship that never gets dull.

Love that is never ending,

and faith of a pumpkin seed.

I don't want what you can buy off with money.

What I want is your friendship,

your love,

your compassion,

and to know that someone really does care...

and maybe, just maybe,

a simple hug and hello.