ready

Today WILL be a good day because I said so!
I will not let anything screw with me!!!!
NO NO NO!
Lets be happy little ducks playing in a pond.
Frogs leaping over one another.
Puppies sniffing each others butts.?.
haha
okay well my daily agenda will be the same as usual for fridays:
•Swim
•Work
•Do small kine homework
• the rest is a mystery
•*** Be happy, be nice, be kind, be a good person, say please, say thank you, smile, no crying, no frowning, laugh, jump, run, scream with glee!!!!!!
Yes today MUST be a good day! please!!!!

Tears fall down her rose stained cheeks.
Puffy eyes and an oozing heart.
The world is attacking her from every point
She can't do this
Wont do this, the last straw.
Giving up was always so far away.
Tell him she is serious.
This one last time, he's straining her inside and out.

Gazing back he breaks apart.
Realizing his folly he proceeds
to tell her his heart.
The heart she thought was hard as stone.

More tears, and it scares him.
She says it's okay, they are tears of resurrection.
Giving up is far once again.
Love fills the once faded eyes.

The cloud clears and they see each other.
Perfectly and forever.
It wont end here
not like this.
Making up never felt so good.
Intertwined in each other.
Staring at each other with love.
Never letting go, this moment will never end.
S

babysitting

So I'm here with my boyfriend babysitting.
Super funny! She has so many questions about everything!
It makes me wonder what it would be like to go back to that age.
Four years old; probably the best age there is.

She knows everything,
yet has so many questions.
independence set in since the day she could walk.
Yet dependant she remains.
Laughing at the small things
and crying over the bugs.
Life is so simple.
Easy to fall in love with everything she meets.
So many years ahead.
Slow down beautiful child.
You don't want to see it,
the world is scary.
Stay dependent; only walk home.
Love everyone and embrace what you have.
One day you will look back
and wonder where the years have gone.
SO laugh little one,
it's okay.
Tears are for strength;
be prepared for your future.




OHhh the boy, he is so cute.
I never knew how much he loves kids.
Crap! I still have so much homework to do and I haven't been home all day!
I better go...

needy

I get it all and it's not enough
look at me look at me
Touch me please.
To know I'm alive?
Or to know I have feelings.
Help me understand,
I can't do it alone.
Please don't ask why;
I don't know myself.
I just need you, I just want you.
For myself, selfish?
Yes, I know.
I need this to happen,
now more then ever.
I've fallen so fast and frequently.
Over and over again.
AHa! I know now;
love.

LIFE

The rain is falling and Joanne just gave me peanuts.
Spin the wheel and see where you land.
Left or right?
Which is the best way to go.
The little box decides your fait.
To live, or live on.
always on and on.
Something new, yes quite exciting.
Collect $40,000 or loose it.
Grab a life
Get a life
Twins
Houses
Cars.
If only we could be so lucky.
If somone was playing my life like a bored game.
Maybe it would be more eventful
than this.

on and on

Gotta move, gotta move
I can't stay here any longer.
I'm bored, I'm bored.
It's hard to find the beauty of the day
In paradise I can't find it.
Try something new,
yes, yes something new.
All the strings al falling off.
But one,
the most beautiful one.
Come with me?
Please.
Stretch your limits and find beauty!
With me..
Change, we need it.
I need it, you need it.
Who am I and who are you?
We won;t know unless we try.
Fly, Fly, run, move.
The beauty of the day, is there.
Beautiful strand, of life.
The beauty won't be without you.
run...

ending

Break is ending and school starts in two days.
I have to get back on my diet.
I feel gross.
I am so tired, I need some rest
although I slept for 12 hours last night.

The clock is ticking closer to work.
blah blah blah
Planning my spring trip, and I can't wait.
I still need relief.