Horoscope

Today my horoscope said that the flowers of my heart will blossom.
Oh Lord I really hope so.
I'm tired of being tucked in the darkness, lonely and depressed.

Thank you Afton and Nash for noticing and caring.
Even though I don't see you Nash much, I'm glad you are still my friend.

Please summer light,
shine on my darkened life

mood: thinking positive.

PS: People have been taking this whole TROG movement WAY too seriously. I figure if they are, they are way to insecure about themselves. We can't all like everyone and not everyone will like us, so we are all the same. As far as the north shore goes, Trog has been the label for a girl or whatever that a person doesn't like, so if you have nothing good to say you minus well say it about yourself. Cause someone just might be calling you a trog too.

days keep passing

one two three four
Everyday is going by waaaay too fast. With nothing significant or exciting to remember them by.
My friends are distant and I am left feeling abandoned.
Making new friends are so hard at 19 years old.
New plans are emerging, revealing a new life ahead.

Forget about me if you must.
But I won't be around long to bring back the memory.

Family and my love are all that I have.
Holding me back, in a good way not bad.
I need change!
North shore is so lame these days.

Now, time to finish another day
dull and insignificant.

change of sight

Hearing shit
is different than listening to shit.
Saying shit,
is different than doing shit.

I am tired
of people making shit with people.
Walking on the people that have been the best to you.
Talking only leads your mouth to a fist.

Stop talking, and face what your claiming you'll win.
Stupid girls and stupid lies.
1 2 3 4,
you don't know and that is really sad.
5 6 7 8
lost track and your life is down the drain.

Get over your life, it's really not that great.
DO something beside fail.
So sad, I would feel for you, but I don't.

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Fights last night were SICK!
I have way more respect for those guys and girls now.
Next time, boys are in for the win, coming for your neck haha
Sky is currently teaching me some shit and shit. haha
learning to throw a punch when I thought I already knew.
But now it's just a little harder!
YEAH BIIITCH talk shit I'm training to take you down.
tehehe, I'm not one for violence, but you mess with my friends
you mess with me, BRING IT!

broken

4:13am and my heart has never felts so empty and shattered.
Life is a bitch, smacking me in ever direction possible.
When everything seems to be getting better,
all of a sudden I become a snotty bitch.
THAT'S NOT ME! BELIEVE ME! I would never ever ever want to come across as THAT!

How do I tell someone I love them, after they say they don't want me anymore.

This is the worst feeling in the world!
WHY GOD?! Is this punishment for not having control over my emotions?

CHANGE, it's what I am trying to do. FIx everything, mend my swollen heart
and swollen red eyes.

Now, 4:16am
I lay down and try again.

and we go on

Leaving the best memories behind
after learning that your weren't real to them anyway.
What is the use of trying?
If no one considers you a part of anything.
Someone to make time go by?
The person on the last string when no one is around.

Yup, always have and always will be
the last choice, the last thought, the last memory
that anyone will ever have.

I am no one, not even to myself.
I am my only friend with maybe one or two others.
I will live my life with no expectations
and no desire for anyone else.

When all else fails just call Kesha?
Maybe that is how it is.
Nothing else to do, time for our last resort.

Too bad, so sad.
modo of my life.
It's not that we go on.
Everyone else goes on
while I am left alone in the dust.

NO, I do not choose this path for myself
listen and read, I DO try to get your attention
check your phones, your dumb ass facebook and myspace.
That is where I have become desperate.
It's not that I want your attention,
it's that no one has given much to me anyway.

Talking about her, or him.
Yeah, I will listen because I do care.

I wish someone would listen back.

so and so and so

So life really goes on.
Things are working out slowly and painfully, and I thought it should.

Summer just hit me leaving a nice pink spanking on my ass.
Life is bitter sweet with baby chunseys in the morning
and on shore cool winds in the evening.
I'm so tired now after work
but I must clean my room.
Friday nights have lost their touch.
Absolutely NOTHING to do these days.
Sad sad.
I just want to rage and dance with my girls and my fella on my side.
too bad 5 more pounds has set me back.
Gottah get back into the routine, oh boyyy.
I do love summer.



you can guess who is who. teeheehee

I am the one to blame

It's really sad that I am to blame that my own boyfriend doesn't see his friends.
Let's look at the facts:
I don't get to see him that much anyway maybe an hour or two every other day.
Most of the time I spend alone waiting around. And YEAH I do hang out with my friends a lot,
but that's because the times I spend with them are when I can't be with skyler.
So it's sooo stupid, it's his fault he chooses not to be with them when he can.
I should never be the one to blame for this. And the worst part is is that I have to be equally leveled with his friends.
I don't think that is fair, I am supposed to be his girlfriend, yeah I expect to see him at least every other day. But isn't it how that should be. That's what happens when you are in a relationship, times with friends are less and you DO hang out with you girl/boyfriend more often then most.
But whatever, now I'm stuck scheduling the time I can spend with him. Only one full day and maybe two or three hours every like three days.
Honestly, that's kind of lame. But I guess that's what I got myself into and I am kind of over it.


And now I am stuck at home alone, friends are busy with THEIR boyfriends, or just busy.
I honestly don't care that he is spending time with his friends, why should I?
I just don't think that I should be blamed for him not getting to see them.

SOOO who ever has spare time like me, we cruise!

Once upon a time...

they lived happily ever after???
doubt it