alone

It seems these days are being spent alone.

Everyone busy, gone, forgotten.

I find myself talking to myself and laughing at my own jokes.

I am my own friend, my own best friend.

So much more is getting done, laundry, cleaning,

tune ups, homework.

But yet I am having the HARDEST time in school.

God knows why, but my study habits are leading me down the drain.

But it is still sunny outside of my window.

The birds are chirping on schedule,

And I, continue each day like the last.

Oh! and, I would like to repeat ---------^^^^^^

this day over and over again. ----------^^^^^^

Champagne, friends, fun, laughter..

complete

Oh my heart is so full of love

He has returned to me

with kisses and hugs

a girl could only dream of.

His big black eyes full of stories

that he would never be able to tell.

So many questions

held in so many mysteries.

But of course, when one gains

one must loose.

I am broken, again

from the same old swindler.

Life never stops sending me it's curve ball.

But I must remain humble, and grateful.

I will find what I deserve.

why

Is my puppy gone?!

Was it something I did,

is this something I deserve.

Who knew that the absence of a crazy,

wild dog would leave me torn up.

I can't sleep, can't focus, can't eat.

I just want my puppy home.

I want my best friend home!

xD

Alone once again.

every breath, step, glance, touch

feels so routine.

No time to be with friends,

no time to be with myself.

Everyone is just so gosh darn busy.

Ignoring my calls, screening my messages

Yeah I know that is what you do.

You can't hide, you can't fake.

Only wanting me when you have no one else.

This is not what I am meant for,

not what I want.

What do I want?

Happy faces surrounded with laughter.

Friendship that never gets dull.

Love that is never ending,

and faith of a pumpkin seed.

I don't want what you can buy off with money.

What I want is your friendship,

your love,

your compassion,

and to know that someone really does care...

and maybe, just maybe,

a simple hug and hello.

sprint

so I went on a jog with my new pup Kula.
Yeah, not so much of a jog
more like a SPRINT!
ahhh

it was pretty hilarious non the less

and yes, my face is BRIGHT red!

oh the love I have for that animal...

disappointed

Yes times are feeling like they should.
But of course they will never last.
Friends are leaving in a month or so.
And I, am stuck doing nothing with my life.
Spending way too much for a community college,
not at all knowing what I am doing.

A boy friend who thinks he will never amount to anything.
no one to rely on, no one to trust anymore.
On top of that I feel like people are dropping dead left and right.
I am TIRED OF MY LIFE!
I need to do something!

You never know, I could be the next body found.
The next victim, the next tragedy, less then a loss.

What a rude awakening to my dull bitter sleep.
I've got to get out of here,
even if I have to break my own heart to do it.

But will I?
of course not, because motivation is not in my criteria.
If I even had one...

life

It's funny how things can get out of view,
people looked over, and time taken for granted.
Never stopping to as how he/she is doing.
Thinking the time is yours and for no one else.

The phrase "see you later,"
never really served much purpose,
when later means another life.
Life is too short to take for granted.

Love everyone, and embrace the day.

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R.I.P. Warren
My prayers are with you.